"Bad Girl Gone Good"/ New Beginning"

"Bad Girl Gone Good"/ New Beginning"

Not sure if most of you have noticed but I have changed my name on twitter to "JustKBLove". I have decided to take another avenue toward my future. I have left the adult film industry as of April 13th. I did my last scene for "Ghetto Gaggers". I will tell you that the scene was intense but I can say that the director and everyone was very nice so respectful and just all around one of the best sets I have been on. This has been a long time coming, I know some of you may be wondering how did this come about? What made me make this decision? or many other questions.

Well I am going to tell you in my own words. I felt that it was time for me to make a change, when it comes to deciding whether to have a place to rest my head or to chase behind a black hole that is slowly closing right in front of me. You tell me which road would you take? I found out somethings the hard way, but one thing I can say is that I have learned a lot. I will not bash the industry because it was what it was and everything comes to an end.

I won't give a tell-tell all as I have somethings in the works but I do want to share some of my experiences within the industry that I have run across. I can say that I was never made to do anything that that I didn't want, I was never disrespected by anyone(at least on set). I learned a lot about my sexuality as well as others. I have met a lot of people some for the good but more for the bad. One of many reasons why I chose to leave is because of what it has to offer and to me personally I feel nothing no sense of entitlement or a higher elevation. I was in the business since 2007 and I feel no sense of growth. There are many who make it through and build from it, but not all of us can be that "lucky" I use that word lightly because I wouldn't call it luck at least not from my perspective, knowing that I want a career as and LPN. I never sought to make porn my career. I knew coming in that it was not going to be easy but never thought that the road get's that rough, but one thing I can say we live and we learn and there are always reasons why things happen so.

Some said that there is no way out or you won't get out, make it however you have to believe in yourself to get out and want a new beginning. I realized that and know that more than ever now I want that 9-5, go to school just be that old KB. The change had to start with me. I had to make the initiative to get out. The industry is not all red roses it does have many flaws that others may or refuse to tell you, but as you read above times do get hard and you may think that "you are the shit" but its not you who makes that decision. I can also say that this is one industry that is so "white is right" and please don't mistake me I am far from prejudice I just speak the real and my experience... The reason why I used that term is because as you can see most or all "contract girls" are white all that win awards are white. I am not saying that I ever wanted any of it but if I did or strive for that I would have been highly disappointed.

Black companies are the same as well as white companies I must say that when it comes to hiring certain talent either your white, you have to have a big ass, lower your rates, kiss ass and be well known name just to name a few things that have been thrown at me. I feel that I am who I am and make no mistake about it I will not get injections for anyone, lower rates just to try and get ahead", damn sure ain't kissing no one's ass and further more how does one get a big name if companies choose not to shoot them even if they are of quality???? That was one that always bothered me but I don't have to worry about that anymore as I am off to pursue a life of helping others.

Too many people say that they want to help, too many fakes, when in reality they just want to try and bring you down. I can tell you friends are far and few between, so when you do come across a good one stick with him or her because trust me there are a lot of snakes that truly want to see you fail. You have to choose what is best for you because in the long run you will only know who you are and what you want "Never Let anyone Dictate your Life".

I did not give up for those who may have said that, I chose to leave. I know when its time to make a change for the better in my eyes. I just moved on. I have a good man by my side who is pulling for me just as hard as I am and anyone knows when you have that right man/woman you will make the right decision based on you and your future. I did not quit because of a man by no means I have always been a woman who makes her own decisions,just with his daily talks and words of encouragement helped me to choose a different way of life and I can say that I have "exhaled"

Nothing Last forever....."Good things come to and end" When something brings you more pain than pleasure its time to let it go.....I know that letting go is one of the hardest but if you truly want it you will have it and that goes for anything in life.





I truly want to thank Marie Luv and Nevaquit for all their help and support truly have been a shining star. There were many battles that I had to fight and not once did you all ever give up so please know I whole heartily appreciate it all.

Thank you to all my magnificent fans the years have been memorable...Mwah's