Why I Am Single

I have been asked many times "why are you single?"

Well let me tell you I was married for 5 years (young age) and now divorced for almost 6 years. I have dated here and there, but when it truly comes down to it men have no clue when to realize they have stumbled upon a one in a million charm. I took time out for myself. I was single by choice and knowing the fact that I have no children and can come and go as she pleases that appealed to me. I settled down at a very early age because I wanted the sense of security and thought that it was all I wanted. You know when you are young you feel that no matter what anyone tells you, you feel that you know best when in reality they are truly truing to help. Well that young lady was me at one point. I didn't want to hear what anyone had to say I just knew I had everything under control. Please don't mistake me, my ex husband was the husband(financially) that most women would gravel at his feet for, but for me after realizing more and more what life had in store and what I wanted to pursue and seeing that he wasn't the one for me it was time for me to make a tough decision, so yes I am the one who filed the divorce. As you see money is not everything. I was able to take a step back and realize that my self worth, pride and dignity is PRICELESS.

The few that I have dated here and there some have been worth the time but then I run into those that don't understand the meaning of being honest. I am going to tell you all a little story without giving up names and then you will get a better understanding why I am so hard up and have a brick wall the size of China up. I was dating this gentleman for about a year and a half (recently) and once I came to California so many people were telling me that he was with someone else now mind you I was on the east coast when all this was going on. I didn't have a problem with him dating another I mean that is why its called "dating" see who you want just be honest with me don't have me looking like a fool and that is exactly what he did. I don't like being the last to know or the laughing stock in the room. So as I go around this whole situation trying to figure out what to do next, I realized who I was and what I wanted from my life. I decided to make the best of what has taken place while trying to stay cordial throughout the whole ordeal. I just felt that me being blind sided was so unfair especially when I am asking you after the fact and you still tell me that its not true(it's not like that') men's favorite line(lol). Needless to say we are friends and have been able to get along but what he did still cuts me a little bit and please know I wasn't hurt because he was dating another I was hurt because I thought we was better than that and had a better understanding to speak on what we did or who we did(hell I did). So fellas please know most of the time when you hurt a woman its not her feelings you hurt it was the sense of HONESTY/TRUST that you chose to break.

I chose to be single because of that special word. Men think that just because I am an adult film star that's what defines me well you are truly MISTAKEN. I am a woman first and foremost what I do as a job not a career does not define the woman I am. I know what I want in a man, I don't ask for much. I am the one who cooks, cleans, runs errands, handles housework and still holds down a job handles her business and I will be damned if I get with a man who is useless does not even have one good quality about him besides his good looks because guess what this is 2009 and for all those who have yet to notice looks are out the window if your personality sucks.

I don't like all the drama and bullshit that men try to come at me with. I see it like this come at me correct or not at all. Those lame words I been hearing ie; "hey ma wut it do?" "hey ma I got some business to discuss" knowing that in reality you just trying to get at me its not going to happen because first off you should have been a "MAN" about your shit. trying to holla at me on myspace, twitter facebook telling me that you have a business offer when in reality you are trying to get at me STOP IT that's lame you should atleast be honest instead of lying to get my phone number.Please stop sending me pictures of your cock and what you feel you can do to me because trust those who mostly talk are just that talkers.

I am a truly intelligent woman, I have made some mistakes in my life as well have but trust me when its comes to love and or matters of the heart I have grown to be so dignified at it. I am very proud of myself, at times I think its a curse and a blessing at the same time. I date here and there but other than that I am cool because I feel that when and if it happens it will no need to rush or make it happen as we all know when you force something instead of letting it happen naturally most of the time it blows up.

So I hope this answered your "million $$" question

I use my email for fan mail which is destinyday29@yahoo.com and I also have an additional email for my bookings(not posting it here) so if truly serious you know how to contact me.

Fabulous Night /Ecstasy

I had such a wonderful night last night. Marie Luv came over and spent the night. We had such a good time. So the night started with a little bit of webcam for our fans and just the general public. We had a few glasses of wine our favorite which is white wine Sutter Home Moscato. So we laid around and talked for a while. Then I hopped in the shower to get all fresh and clean and then of course she got in after me...We laid back in the bed and talked a little while longer and then she was like okay its time to taste you. I was so ready for the night, so the atmosphere was with candles lit and music playing in the background(not sure what was playing). She started sucking and licking on my titties ever so sensual shit felt so damn right. Kissed her way down to my wet juicy puss and just licked it so soft and so gently it felt like I was in ecstasy actually I was(lol). She hit all my pleasure points with no issues. She knew where to lick on my clit and suck it so gentle while my juices flowed down, legs shaking and trying to catch my breath while enjoying the beautiful love making.Making me ready to climb my headboard, moaning to the point of no return not wanting it to ever end. I then put on her on her back and started from her soft titties, I gently sucked on them like they were a succulent peach. I worked my way down to her enticing clit and started sucking ever so sensual and soft making her squirm all over the bed listening to her moan sounded so magnificent. My ass was raised in the air looking so Evolutionary with the candle lit glistening off my soft skin. We both had the pleasure of tasting sweet juices flowing down our throat while taking each beyond the point of no return.

I have come to cherish this night as I was able to explore many avenues of my sexuality that I never knew existed. My sensitivity was heightened to the point of oblivion. I never imagined that one could make you feel this way about your sexual encounters. but I must say that I have thought about this day many nights just did not know that it would play out the way it did. It was magical almost like heaven sent. I am expressing myself so freely now because I need and want you all to understand yes I have been with women before but never on a level of where Marie Luv took me and also the fact that I never had feelings for a woman or looked forward to being with that person. I use to just do it for fun(3some) and that happened 2 or 3 times and then once I got into the business I still didn't have that many encounters to put me in the mind set that I am in now. So I have to say that was my first actual one on one encounter with such beautiful erotic woman and would not change anything about it.:)

I hope you enjoy the reading as well as I enjoyed my night:)

Webcam/Trust

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How I Got Into Adult Films

I have been asked a lot how did I manage to end up doing adult film industry. Let me start off by saying which I know I have said before, I have worked a 9-5 for nine years. I did my first film when I was 20 for a company called bignaturals.com however I was not ready to in delve into the adult film industry at that point in my life so I gave it some years. I then decided to post an ad on a website called sexyjobs.com along with some photos of myself in April of 2007. I was then later contacted by an agency called Adult Faces who then flew me out to Sunny California. I traveled back and forth from my state to California doing adult films. I have done some back east but for the most part they have been filmed out here in California. I will be honest I was rather nervous once I got here. When I went to do my first scene I was still nervous, but I felt that I couldn't tell anyone because I didn't want people to ask me why I was here. I initially started the business because I felt that it was easy money and it was quick and I only wanted to do it for about 6 months, but once I got into and met many people I found the industry very enticing and wanted more. I took a break for 10 months and researched other talents films as well as observe other scenes taking place to get a sense of what exactly was being requested of me. Once I had the long well deserved break I then decided that I wanted more so I flew back here in January after the AVN awards and took the industry full force and now have chose to give it my all and make it work to my advantage. I value what I have accomplished and what I know can be conquered. I have came to realize that I truly want to make this industry work to my advantage and enjoy the journey along the way with the ability of learning more of my sensual pleasure spots while still being able to maintain my sense of balance between the industry and reality.

I have a degree in Criminal Justice(Social Worker) and I am also going back to school in the spring for my LPN(License Practitioner Nurse). So always know that some of adult film stars have much more going on in our lives than meets the eye.

Friday Night Fun

Hello all,

I want to share my experience with you that I had this past Friday. I actually had a fabulous day. I went to dinner with a very special friend and as you all know I never drop names like that so we will call him Mr. N . We went to Red Lobster, I had a few comments on twitter from a few fans telling me that he should have taken me to another restaurant but to know one thing about me. I am a very simple lady I would much have rather cooked a nice meal at home but he knew that Red Lobster has always been one of my favorite places to eat no matter how many other 2-5 star restaurants I have dined at. We then went back to my house, which then Marie Luv came over we have a great night. We had sum Nuvo of course we are all of age(lol) and also went live on Ustream for a while. Marie Luv fell asleep first and I say this with such laughter in my voice because she never falls asleep first. I wanted to take some pictures of her since she was the one that fell asleep first but I was not sure if it would have been okay. So I asked her the next day if that would have been alright and she said yeah I should have so sorry everyone but I promise I will get her sleeping next time she looked so cute. So me and Mr. N stayed up with his other friend as well and just talked cause actually he fell asleep too(his friend). Mr. N is someone that I have a past with so it was rather cool to just catch up and chill out. We actually almost made it til the sun came up but of course I was the next one to give in to my sleepiness. I want to say to you all that this was a good night because it was with some well deserved company and just was able to enjoy our free time with no interruptions. Oh well I do have to say that I wanted to get it in with my wifey (Marie Luv) and since Mr N. had a friend with him I was not comfortable doing anything in front of his friend. But then they left and of course she was still sleep, I took a shower hoping that maybe she would have woke up to the sound of the shower but needless to say she was knocked out and she was sleeping so peaceful and looked so innocent. She fell asleep with he jeans on so you know she was extremely tired and you know that its not sexy trying to pull jeans off anyone tight one's (lol). But overall the night ended well. I was rather sleepy to begin with but of course I would not pass up a chance to eat such a sweet one :)