Saturday, October 24, 2009

Why I Am Single

I have been asked many times "why are you single?"

Well let me tell you I was married for 5 years (young age) and now divorced for almost 6 years. I have dated here and there, but when it truly comes down to it men have no clue when to realize they have stumbled upon a one in a million charm. I took time out for myself. I was single by choice and knowing the fact that I have no children and can come and go as she pleases that appealed to me. I settled down at a very early age because I wanted the sense of security and thought that it was all I wanted. You know when you are young you feel that no matter what anyone tells you, you feel that you know best when in reality they are truly truing to help. Well that young lady was me at one point. I didn't want to hear what anyone had to say I just knew I had everything under control. Please don't mistake me, my ex husband was the husband(financially) that most women would gravel at his feet for, but for me after realizing more and more what life had in store and what I wanted to pursue and seeing that he wasn't the one for me it was time for me to make a tough decision, so yes I am the one who filed the divorce. As you see money is not everything. I was able to take a step back and realize that my self worth, pride and dignity is PRICELESS.

The few that I have dated here and there some have been worth the time but then I run into those that don't understand the meaning of being honest. I am going to tell you all a little story without giving up names and then you will get a better understanding why I am so hard up and have a brick wall the size of China up. I was dating this gentleman for about a year and a half (recently) and once I came to California so many people were telling me that he was with someone else now mind you I was on the east coast when all this was going on. I didn't have a problem with him dating another I mean that is why its called "dating" see who you want just be honest with me don't have me looking like a fool and that is exactly what he did. I don't like being the last to know or the laughing stock in the room. So as I go around this whole situation trying to figure out what to do next, I realized who I was and what I wanted from my life. I decided to make the best of what has taken place while trying to stay cordial throughout the whole ordeal. I just felt that me being blind sided was so unfair especially when I am asking you after the fact and you still tell me that its not true(it's not like that') men's favorite line(lol). Needless to say we are friends and have been able to get along but what he did still cuts me a little bit and please know I wasn't hurt because he was dating another I was hurt because I thought we was better than that and had a better understanding to speak on what we did or who we did(hell I did). So fellas please know most of the time when you hurt a woman its not her feelings you hurt it was the sense of HONESTY/TRUST that you chose to break.

I chose to be single because of that special word. Men think that just because I am an adult film star that's what defines me well you are truly MISTAKEN. I am a woman first and foremost what I do as a job not a career does not define the woman I am. I know what I want in a man, I don't ask for much. I am the one who cooks, cleans, runs errands, handles housework and still holds down a job handles her business and I will be damned if I get with a man who is useless does not even have one good quality about him besides his good looks because guess what this is 2009 and for all those who have yet to notice looks are out the window if your personality sucks.

I don't like all the drama and bullshit that men try to come at me with. I see it like this come at me correct or not at all. Those lame words I been hearing ie; "hey ma wut it do?" "hey ma I got some business to discuss" knowing that in reality you just trying to get at me its not going to happen because first off you should have been a "MAN" about your shit. trying to holla at me on myspace, twitter facebook telling me that you have a business offer when in reality you are trying to get at me STOP IT that's lame you should atleast be honest instead of lying to get my phone number.Please stop sending me pictures of your cock and what you feel you can do to me because trust those who mostly talk are just that talkers.

I am a truly intelligent woman, I have made some mistakes in my life as well have but trust me when its comes to love and or matters of the heart I have grown to be so dignified at it. I am very proud of myself, at times I think its a curse and a blessing at the same time. I date here and there but other than that I am cool because I feel that when and if it happens it will no need to rush or make it happen as we all know when you force something instead of letting it happen naturally most of the time it blows up.

So I hope this answered your "million $$" question

I use my email for fan mail which is destinyday29@yahoo.com and I also have an additional email for my bookings(not posting it here) so if truly serious you know how to contact me.




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